Happy Father’s Day!

Sunday, June 18, 2017 No tags Permalink

I was a daddy’s girl growing up. I thought my father could do just about everything.  I still do. 😊

When I was 4, my dad’s head was as big as the world! I rode on his shoulders, clasping his forehead with my tiny hands and laughing as we ran through the grass.

Together we were taller than God.

My dad held my red Schwinn bike as I balanced my first solo trip, and ran alongside before letting me go to pedal into a new world.

I remember whisker rubs and “serious talks” and standing on his feet to dance around the kitchen.
He tied my ice skates double-tight, and there was always love- large and raw and imperfect.

When I prowl through all the prayers in my heart, and in certain photographs in a special kind of light, I can see my dad’s face inside my own, saying “Stick with me kid!”

 

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☀️

Friday, June 16, 2017 No tags Permalink

Haha! This is so me. Earlier this week the front of my Apple Watch became loose, so it had to be sent in to Apple. My son was nice enough to drop it off at the Apple Store and two days later, I had a new watch. Apparently, the battery was “swollen” and pushed the face off. I’m not sure how a lithium ion battery swells, but I’d rather not have it explode or catch on fire. Say what you will about Apple, they have amazing customer service. The watch wasn’t under warranty anymore, but they replaced it free of charge.

Anyhow, I wear my watch all of the time (except when sleeping) and I’ve been doing a lot of riding lately, so I actually have a tan. Well, sort of a tan. Tan for me. 😉 Several people commented on my tan line from where my watch usually is on my wrist.

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The Hush of the Very Good {Poetry}

Tuesday, June 13, 2017 No tags Permalink

You can tell by how he lists
to let her
kiss him, that the getting, as he gets it,
is good.
It’s good in the sweetly salty,
deeply thirsty way that a sea-fogged
rain is good after a summer-long bout
of inland drought.
And you know it
when you see it, don’t you? How it
drenches what’s dry, how the having
of it quenches.
There is a grassy inlet
where your ocean meets your land, a slip
that needs a certain kind of vessel,
and
when that shapely skiff skims in at last,
trimmed bright, mast lightly flagging
left and right,
then the long, lush reeds
of your longing part, and soft against
the hull of that bent wood almost im-
perceptibly brushes a luscious hush
the heart heeds helplessly—
the hush
of the very good.

-Todd Boss

Wide Open

Friday, June 9, 2017 No tags Permalink

The simple answer to this is that we forget. We forget the door is wide open. We even forget there’s a door. But it’s there just the same. Eventual we stumble around enough to find it and then summon the courage to walk out.

Hello June!

Thursday, June 1, 2017 No tags Permalink

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    • Good Things
  • haircuts
  • the ocean air
  • waterfalls
  • falling asleep under the stars
  • farmers markets
  • when you step outside in the morning and the air seems fresher and crisper than it does during the day
  • trampolines
  • ice cream
  • car rides and night-time adventures
  • the sounds of nature
  • feeling the wind in your hair
  • long bicycle rides
  • the beach at night
  • picnics under the shade of a tree
  • lying in a field of flowers
  • fireworks
  • brightly painted toe nails
  • good company
  • making a wish on a dandelion
  • driving with the windows rolled down
  • flowers
  • reading in the sunshine
  • cold brew iced coffee on the patio
  • naps
  • summer rain and the sun shining through your half-drawn blinds in the morning
  • people who give hugs with a little squeeze at the end
  • outdoor cinemas
  • movies that make you laugh
  • movies that make you cry
  • movies that make you do both
  • how every single day the sky looks different
  • clear blue skies that remind you of the endless possibilities that life has to offer
  • listening to songs that you listened to when you were younger
  • dusk
  • days like these
  • hope
  • now

“…I want first of all – in fact, as an end to these other desires – to be at peace with myself. I want a singleness of eye, a purity of intention, a central cor to my life that will enable me to carry out these obligations and activities as well as I can. I want, in fact – to borrow from the language of the saints -to live ‘in grace’ as much of the time as possible. I am not using this term in a strictly theological sense. By grace I mean an inner harmony, essentially spiritual, which can be translated into outward harmony…”
― Anne Morrow Lindbergh


“When you love someone, you do not love them all the time, in exactly the same way, from moment to moment. It is an impossibility. It is even a lie to pretend to. And yet this is exactly what most of us demand. We have so little faith in the ebb and flow of life, of love, of relationships. We leap at the flow of the tide and resist in terror its ebb. We are afraid it will never return. We insist on permanency, on duration, on continuity; when the only continuity possible, in life as in love, is in growth, in fluidity – in freedom, in the sense that the dancers are free, barely touching as they pass, but partners in the same pattern.

The only real security is not in owning or possessing, not in demanding or expecting, not in hoping, even. Security in a relationship lies neither in looking back to what was in nostalgia, nor forward to what it might be in dread or anticipation, but living in the present relationship and accepting it as it is now. Relationships must be like islands, one must accept them for what they are here and now, within their limits – islands, surrounded and interrupted by the sea, and continually visited and abandoned by the tides.”
― Anne Morrow Lindbergh, Gift from the Sea

A Simple Practice

Monday, May 29, 2017 No tags Permalink

There are two core fears: losing what you have, and not getting what you want. There is one solution: Falling in love with where you are…”
Jeff Foster

I have a huge struggle with this idea. The falling in love with where you are. It feels too complacent, too much like settling. Yet, I know it is a key factor in happiness. I guess like most things in life, it comes down to balance. I have been working on a simple practice for whenever I feel stress, frustration, worry, and all the other detrimental mindsets that bring upset into my life.

  • Focus, carefully, on what you’re feeling. Don’t numb it with distractions, but instead bring it further into your awareness.
  • Turn to it, and welcome it. Give what you feel your full, thoughtful attention.
  • Notice the feeling in your body. Where is the feeling situated, and what unique qualities does it have?
  • Notice the tension in your body, and also in your mind, that arises from this feeling.
  • Try relaxing the tense parts of your body. Then relax the tense parts of your mind. Focus on your breath: Close your eyes, breathe in and feel it, breathe out and feel it, again and again, until you feel more relaxed.
  • In this more relaxed state, find some quiet space within yourself.
  • Allow yourself to rediscover the fundamental goodness within you, that’s present in every moment.
  • Allow yourself to rediscover the fundamental goodness of this very moment; it is always available to you whenever you’re willing to focus on it.

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Once in a Lifetime

Friday, May 26, 2017 No tags Permalink

 

The best kind of people are the ones who come into your life and make you see the sun where you once saw clouds. The people who believe in you so much, you start to believe in you too. The people who love you, simply for being you. The once in a lifetime kind of people. ❤️

The Storm

Wednesday, May 24, 2017 No tags Permalink

I am a being of Heaven and Earth, of thunder and lightning, of rain and wind, of the galaxies.

On Children

Monday, May 22, 2017 No tags Permalink

“Over the past two years I’ve become increasingly concerned that we’re raising children who have little tolerance for disappointment and have a strong sense of entitlement, which is very different than agency. Entitlement is “I deserve this just because I want it” and agency is “I know I can do this.” The combination of fear of disappointment, entitlement, and performance pressure is a recipe for hopelessness and self-doubt.” Brené Brown

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Three Bs

Sunday, May 21, 2017 No tags Permalink

Brunch, bicycles, and battleships. That was my Sunday.

We’ve been wanting to try out this new restaurant nearby, and today we finally made it. When we arrived, the hostess asked if we knew it was their brunch only menu and was that okay? Brunch is always okay! I love brunch and this place had a spectacular one. Our accidental brunch made me think of this hilarious video.

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Internalized Oppression

Wednesday, May 17, 2017 No tags Permalink

Internalized oppression is a form of emotional abuse that we inflict upon ourselves and it keeps us stuck.

When you take on people’s projections on as your truth, your pain is exponentially increased.

Life is already hard enough.

 

The Walls You Build

Wednesday, May 10, 2017 No tags Permalink

This is probably far truer than we want to believe. Isn’t it easier to tell yourself that you can’t do this or that because you’re married (or not married). Or you have kids. Or a house. Or blah, blah, blah. Insert excuse here.

Many people believe they are trapped in situations and they cannot get out. (Hey, I’ve been there.) And they truly believe it was not their fault. The truth is, every situation you get yourself into is to some degree is your own fault. Yes there are some exceptions, but most things that happen in our lives happen because of what we do. It’s all about personal responsibility. The beauty of it is, you also have the power to get yourself out of anything you get yourself into.

You are free to choose, but you are not free from the consequences of your choice.

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Before {Poetry}

Tuesday, May 9, 2017 No tags Permalink

And one day,
In the middle of a life you didn’t sign up for
On roads you never thought you’d walk
With bruised knees
And tired legs
With hopeful eyes and
Slow, unclenching fists,
You will stumble upon a mirror
Unsure of what you’ll see
And you will
Look into the reflection,
Surprised to discover
That
Everything
may have changed
But you
Look more like yourself
Than you ever have
Before.
-macaile.hutt