The Cure for Anything

Your runaway hands left my hair in knots
I try to brush you out as the clumps fall to the floor
You always took a part of me with you
You always left me less of whatever I started as before
Your leaving kisses left my stomach in my throat
I try to swallow you down and get you out
You’re the taste in my mouth in the morning reminding me that I’m alone.
You’re the endless seconds turned into weeks spent staring at the phone
You are the worst demand and the best ache
from my brittle bones to my hollow heart
to the cold blood bringing color to my cheeks.
You are the released sigh telling me the pain is over
For but a moment I feel relief
You are the constant longing and the begging for slaughter
The bleeding out from my fingertips as I touch a body of nails
that awakens every atom and every cell and every tear and every scream.
You are the pushing you away and the pulling you inside of me
All the way inside
Until you disappear
You always disappear.
Until we meet again.

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– macaile